Thursday, November 13, 2008

The Big News...

Anyone that knows me can probably take a wild guess and figure out what the big news is...

Could it be???

Here's the long version of the story...

When I was pregnant with Levi, Greg and I decided that he would be our final baby. Since he was conceived, he's been nothing but a blessing. My pregnancy was my easiest yet, his delivery was nearly pain free (really! and the only one without any meds!), and what a good baby! I rejoiced that he, only 18 months younger than Avery, fit so nicely into our already large family. Why go for another when he completed the picture so well?

Well, that's what I thought...

Four weeks ago, when I realized I was late, I frantically took a test. Negative.

If you read my "I have been changed forever" post, you'll see that early October was quite stressful for our family. So I chalked it up to exactly that...stress. A week after that test, I was still late. What in the world? Let's test again. I casually took a test while Greg was downstairs (I usually make him read the results), and nearly fainted when I read what the little circle on the purple stick contained...a + sign...

What? Levi is five months old! Avery isn't even two! Panic set in...and it hasn't left since.

I wouldn't even let Greg discuss the pregnancy. I was in denial. We were done! Levi was supposed to be my youngest! My thirties were supposed to be about getting in shape and finding my old self and NOT about having more babies! And how would I manage five? Three kids under three years old? Not even Supermom would find that undaunting.

I decided to wait to tell family. For one, I wasn't even ready to say it. I couldn't picture myself spilling the beans. Also, we all just mourned the loss of my sister's baby. I couldn't tell them I was having another. I'll wait until Christmas, I told myself.

Well, now, I'm past the eight week mark, and I'm suddenly feeling pregnant. The morning sickness has arrived. I'm exhausted. It's a struggle to raise four kids, the youngest being six months old. I want to be able to share with friends and family what I am going through, and that means I have to share my news.

So, here it is:

In June 2009, we will welcome our FIFTH child!

My heart has done all sorts of flip-flops since learning how our lives are about to change...again.

This posting does not end with a mom who is utterly lost in fear. Nervous, YES, I certainly am! But I have prayed for peace of mind and for an excitement over this next baby. I know that he or she will be a BLESSING! Each of my kids has added such a richness to my life, and I love them all dearly. This new little one will do that too. I look forward to the moment when I can look into this baby's eyes and tell them how thankful I am that God had him or her in mind all along. When God put Greg and I together, he planned this baby too.

A close friend just spoke this verse to my heart, "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

I am asking you to pray for our family. Pray for a sweet anticipation, for an easy pregnancy, for wisdom concerning the kids and school next year (homeschooling is unlikely), and that we may be overflowing with hope.

Another baby. We've been trusted with another little life. I feel quite undeserving, but I'm starting to feel up to the task. I love you, little one. I can't wait to meet you...

6 comments:

Amber said...

we will be standing on his word with you..."May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

love you, and we couldn't be more excited for you and your family.

JohnathanSwain said...

I am so proud to call you my sister. If any one can do this it is you. Our family has seen so much tragedy yet in the midst of all of our grief comes life, life of this precious new baby. What a blessing. I love you all.

sam said...

What a blessing it is to have the jcrew be a part of the "hut's" family!!We love you ALL!
"praise God from whom all blessings flow"....
you know we love you and you're ALL always in our prayers.
Be blessed.

Maria Santangelo-Dunets said...

Heath,

I cannot think of a better blessing to receive from the Lord. What God has called you and Greg to; He WILL see you through. Remember one day at a time, one thing at a time. I am sooooo happy and feel soooo blessed to have another little niece/nephew on the way. We can't wait! And...if you need anything we are here!!

Love you guys forever and congrats again,
Maria

Tina said...

I love you!

wendy knuth said...

Congratulations, Heather and Family! What a wonderful surprise. When we found out I was pregnant with Logan we did what everyone does who has four children and finds out they are going to have a fifth: we ignored it. Then there comes a time you can't ignore it. It sounds like that is what you did, too. Now I look at our "surprise #5" and just can't believe he is here and how sweet he is. And I also look at all that has happened since he was born, and I know that God has helped us through because we couldn't do it on our own. We put a house on the market, sold it, moved 1,000 miles away, started a new school and unpacked and moved in here. I also look at Paxton and how fun he is at 2 1/2 and think, I get to go through this again with Logan. What a joy every stage is. I know that you know all of this, but I thought a word of encouragement might be helpful. I also know that your other kids will just love this little one like ours love Logan. When I told Dave you were expecting # 5 he said that it is a good number. Then he said, no, it is a goodly number. Enjoy every crazy moment!